Spoke too soon.. but a Great day none the less

Saturday was supposed to bring us up into the 60's.... That's not what we got however.
Instead we got SNOW!
I had such a great day yesterday..
I went up to Kaysville for Jacob's Baptism.. He was very cute, and it was fun to see all of Megan's family. Meg and I have been best Friends since we were 12 (roughly 18 years believe it or not) and I felt more comfortable with all of her family than I imagined. Mia had attached herself to my hip through most of it She's so cute.. I wish the girls could have come.
It was fabulous having a vehicle all day too.. I'm so used to Taylor having it and being stuck at home that I seriously felt like I'd been given parole! I could go ANYWHERE I wanted,and with the girls at Ex's, I only had Mattie to strap in too! YEAH!
After hanging out in Kaysville, I drove through the nasty snow home, and decided that Mattie And I would go grocery shopping. I haven't done that in ages, because usually Taylor just stops on his way home late at night. I was glad to go, because Taylor is notorious for getting JUNK!.
I filled the cart with fruits and veggies, and wholesome ingredients to make some yummy meals this week. I really want to get everyone eating healthier in our house.
When we got home Mattie and I cleaned the kitchen. He helped by smacking everything with the broom handle as he swept the floor, and by climbing into the fridge, freezer, and pantry as I cleaned them. He's so helpful. really.
Earlier in the day before the storm came in and we'd gone up to Kaysville, Mattie had begged to go out in the backyard to play.. It was So windy I was afraid he was going to blow away, but he was so happy that I let him play out there for a good 30 minutes. He seriously had a grin on his face the entire time. He was begging to go out again so I finally brought in his 'Flinstone' car so that he could push it around the kitchen and living room. he loved that, and has mastered going forward in it as long as there are no walls to stop him..
I had so much fun with him all day.. he was being so silly, making up his own jokes, and giggling as I reacted to them. He's such a little snuggle boy too.
He kept scaring me to death by shutting the door to the family room stairs all while standing as close to the edge as he could get without falling off on the other side. I jumped onto the stairs so that I was behind him, and the little joker turned around, ran and slammed the door shut on me laughing so hard he almost fell over. I knocked on the door and he would open it and shut it really fast then run away laughing. I could see his little feet backing away from the door. I stuck my hands under the door, and he'd run up touch them and run away giggling.
We went down to the playroom and he thought he'd be funny by pretending to fall off the couch. He'd climb up and in slow motion would let himself fall onto the floor. (thank goodness for the splurge on thick padding) He LOVED my reaction and was giggling so hard he'd have to wait a minute to climb back up again. We played for quite a while down there, watching Elmo's world, and reading books. He's getting to that age where he's testing things to see what kind of reaction he gets, like wacking me on the head with his plastic hammer (OUCH!). We have to be careful how we react to those things so that he doesnt think they're funny. I love that he gets that things are so funny though.. He totally knows when he's teasing. He's such a clown sometimes.
One of his favorite things is when Taylor and I pretend to fight over holding him.. I'll hold onto his legs and Taylor will hold onto his body and we'll pretend to pull saying "my baby, No, My baby!".. he thinks that's hilarious.
When Taylor got home, I kissed him hello. Mattie took my head and Taylor's head and pushed us back together to kiss again.. Then I kissed Taylor on the cheek hoping Mattie would imitate and he did, it was the cutest little pucker kiss we'd ever seen and I got one on my cheek too. we were both melting. We thought that was it, but then he grabbed my face in his chubby little hands and as I turned to get another kiss on the cheek, he surprised us both by deliberately turning my head and giving me a great big wet one right on the lips. He's so stinking cute, that boy of ours!
before I went to sleep, I snuck in and watched him sleep for awhile. Its so hard for me to not pick him up and snuggle him..
I was telling Taylor that It makes me think about the girls when they were Matties age. I remember them being little, I remember them being so adorable that I felt the same with every little cute thing they did just like we do with Mattie, but those in the moment feelings are not there, I can't remember them exactly its just the stories, and pictures...... it makes me sad to think that next week, that precious little moment will be forgotten and before we know it he'll be 5 and we'll have forgotten what he was like when he was 18 months.
oh sure, we'll write things down, and we'll have pictures, and I do think that there are fun things about every age, but it reminds me that they're growing up really really fast, and I want to hold on to these very moments where its all about playing, and giggling, and sleeping with their butt in the air .... Puberty, and homework, just isn't as fun......

saturday night in kaysville

Alex with Sammy
Originally uploaded by me and mine

Last night we went to Kaysville to hang out with Megan and her three. My Megan was in heaven playing with Mia because Mia is a total Girlie girl, and together they successfully went through every dress up in the house. They played happily and without even one squablet for 3 hours! Megan’s been working on "taking turns" when it comes to deciding what to play with her friends (something we've been working on when the Cason's are at our house) and I think she did a pretty spectacular job because I happened to over hear Mia asking to play wedding after they played Princess, and Megan said "okay, then it will be my turn to decide again" I had to stifle a laugh when Mia came down the stairs in her 'wedding attire' it was complete with veil, and very adorable! I loved watching their girly play. It really looked like fun. It was fun seeing Mattie and Sam playing together, although they really didn’t play together, just kind of side by side, in the same room. It was still fun to see them interact occasionally and to see how "solid" Mattie is (aka chubba wubba bubba) compared to Sammy who is still a skinny little guy. I told him he's got three months to put on a few inches to catch up with Matt. Mattie being the little co-dependant thing that he is played fine as long as I was no more than two feet from him. Megan had to leave to work and I offered to hang out with her crew until her husband got home about 45 minutes later. Both Mattie and Sam were exhausted and cranky so I was trying to manage them both when Ali offered to step in. Since Mattie was not going to have anyone but his mamma holding him, I quickly demonstrated to Ali how to rock Sam while patting his bum, and shushing quietly to calm him down. My skinny little 8 year old picked him up, laid him in her arms and proceeded to rock, pat, and shush that 24 pound little guy to a happy little slumber. I was so impressed and told her so over and over again. She said something then that made me so proud to be her mother, she said "well, I learned from a very special person" I said "oh yeah?" and she replied " you Mom!" It felt fantastic. She was so proud of herself too, she kept saying " I just feel so grown up mom" and "I can't believe I can do this!” She sat on the couch with him asleep in her arms for a good twenty minutes. I propped up her skinny little arms and neck so they wouldn’t give out on her, but she wasn’t about to move that baby.. She’d worked too hard to risk waking him up! When Ryan came in, you could see how proud she was sitting there on the couch holding his little boy and I made a point to let him know how much she'd helped me out with him..

It was a great night. We got home in time to watch Goosebumps, which has become a tradition for the girls every Saturday night. It started at their Dad's house, and I'm not sure I will continue it, because (and Ali won't admit this) they were both freaked out, and spent the night in our bedroom!

Not needed, but needing more.

I may not be a food source any more, but I'm still the Mama.

My Baby decided to ween himself two days ago. Its been a hard break for me. I thought that I would be the one weening him. He's just over a year, and That is longer than I nursed either of the girls. I didn't mind. It was that one thing I could do for him that no one else could. I know he's the last baby I will have, and I haven't wanted to give that bonding up. Is it funny that I miss it? It breaks my heart a little that he won't come to me and want to nurse every time he's hungry hurt or tired. He still needs me right? I don't want my kids to grow up so fast. It hurts a little more than I thought it would.

I did have a few things to distract me from my sadness though.

Megan came down to drop something important off.......Angie had to make an emergency trip to Salt lake for her pet turtle who was ill. And Lucky me, They stayed to play!.

we had 9 kids running around this house for over 5 hours! I LOVED it! We took the opportunity to take some more pictures of the littles. (because come on, whats a trip to Jessica's house without a little photo shoot?), and While conference was on in the background we made cookies and watched them disappear into the Little hands that reached over the counter.

I LOVE having Friends over. I love filling my house with people I love. I thrive on positive, uplifting, Non Judgemental, Unconditional friendships. (by the way.. I missed ya Ang,Mich,Emmee,and Oly Wish you guys could have come over too) I'm so lucky to have such great friends.

Ikea again, and Recital one

Sevy and I went to Ikea again. This time without little ones (well, she had her youngest). We spent FOUR hours there and still didn't make it through the whole place! FOUR hours!
I think what I love about Ikea the most, are the showrooms. I Love that they put complete rooms together for us who have no interior design abilities! I just wish I had the thousand or so per room to complete the whole ensemble. They really think of everything down to the lighting!

After Ikea, We all jumped in the car and went to Megan's Gymnastic recital. She is SUCH a little tumbler! She LOVE "mastics" as she calls it. I think she loves the jumping, swinging, and bouncing off things more than anything. She's so fun to watch, no fear, and full of energy!


She LOVES it! Just look at her face!

After the recital we went to the Sevy's for some yummy BBQ. Taylor helped put up the new desk that she got for Jacob. Its really cool, I want one for myself!

Where did the day go?

What? 9:00 pm already? I think we just packed a week into one day! At least that's how I feel.
The Baptism finally arrived!
I was nervous waking up today. I said another prayer and jumped in to the process of getting everyone ready.
Dresses
Shoes
Hair do’s!
I was running around so much that I had little time to worry until we got to the Church. I had no idea how things were going to happen, who was going to be there, and what was going to be said.. I should have trusted that Heavenly Father had it all under control. Ali was absolutely radiant! Ex’s dad was very obviously nervous and throughout the baptism, but the spirit there was beautiful. Ali came up from the baptismal font beaming. Bursting with a warmth, and energy that only someone who has been baptized can explain. Ex’s dad said later that while she was sitting next to him waiting to be confirmed, she whispered to him “this is the best day of my life!"
Taylor was allowed to stand in the confirmation circle without any immediate repercussion, which made him feel good. I don’t know if I’ll pay for it later or not. I give EX credit for keeping himself in check the entire time. I do wonder if he feels bad that he couldn't have any part in it. I still don’t think that its reason enough for Taylor not to be able to.
Lunch afterwards albeit awkward, went fairly well. All of us, including Taylor’s family all sharing the same area, and some of us all on the same tables. It was odd to look over and see that Taylor’s dad was having a lengthy conversation with Ex’s mother and Father. I approached Ex afterwards. I mentioned that I thought it had all went really well, and thanked him for contributing to that success. I couldn't have been more relieved when it was time to leave the restaurant.
The most important thing today, was that Ali had a memorable, wonderful day.
I Hope that Ali always remembers today with a warm feeling, and a tender heart, and remembers the promises that she has made. I hope that she remembers all of the people who came from all directions to be there for her because they love her, and are proud of the little girl she is. Stay tuned for Pictures coming soon. I want to put together something first before posting them.
I hope that I can let some of my fear go too, so that when situations like this come up again (a.k.a. Megan’s baptism in 3 years) I can anticipate it with joy, and not stress like I have the past few months. Although I know from experience, that letting go of the fear, does NOT mean letting my guard down. I will hopefully be able to enjoy the experience better.
After lunch my Friend and her kids came back to our house to hang out and play. The kids had a great time tearing up the place while Megan and I were busy having some fun of our own with my new camera.
5 hours later, and a sleepover for Ali (Coryne of course) and its time to call it a night!
Thank you everyone for your love and support. Your comments have really meant a lot to me. I am so blessed to have you all in my life.


check out this picture that Megan took! isn it cool? And ofcourse we had to get the boys!!!