My Drama girl had her first big performance last night. Every Tuesday morning for months, she's gone to drama class before school learning how to sing, dance, and perfect her acting abilities, (which pe
rsonally I thinks she's already perfected at home) and finally we got to see what all the practice has been for.
They put on the cutest performance of "caps for sale" a little singing and dancing number about Monkeys steeling the caps from peddlers. Ali was a peddler, and the very best of them of course! She was so incredibly fun to watch.
I was the epitome of proud momma sitting in the audience not taking my eyes off of her and beaming with pride at her every move. I had my camera all ready to take a million pictures, but of course the battery died after only 3 shots.. That camera sucks the life right out of batteries! Fortunately Taylor was in the back with the video camera. Oh did I happen to mention that Taylor and I made all the 'caps'? I volunteered to make them for the drama teacher, and forgot that I was working 12 hour shifts all weekend.....
My mom and Steph came, and the Ex and his parents were there, which makes any situation they share extremely uncomfortable. I'm glad for Ali’s sake that they are there for her, but as hard as I try, I just can't seem to not tremble in Ex's presence. I worry that at any moment he's going to go off on some irrational tirade. They sat on the other side of the auditorium, and because it was His night of the week Meg sat with them, and only ran across the room 3-4 times to give Mattie kisses.
After the Play, we went out to find Ali in the hallway. Steph had bought her flowers, which made her feel super special. (Yeah Steph)! It was really cute. She was so hyper jumping around and talking a mile a minute! I was so proud of her!
Anthony sat her down to film a quick little "interview" of her afterwards. She was so bubbly and cute about it. Ex came and stood with arms folded and toe tapping.. (Ex has a very large "I'm the ONLY Daddy" law.) So he wrapped it up. It still went relatively well between the two families. Ex Mother in law avoided me, which I have to admit was quite the relief. When Ali saw that we were all within close quarters together she got nervous and just started pointing at us all not quite sure what to do with herself. I felt bad that she was uncomfortable and thought I'd end it for her so I just smiled, kissed her, and told her how proud we were, then we excused ourselves and disappeared into the shadows.
Divorce..
I still feel whole-heartedly that I made the best decision for everyone when I left Ex, but I feel So much guilt over what those girls have to deal with for the rest of their lives. The stigma, the drama, the confusion… the loyalty… It’s so hard to watch and know that they have to struggle with those things. The only comfort I have is knowing that Taylor and I are providing them the healthy loving environment that they would not have if I had stayed. I pray everyday that we will have the stronger influence over them in their lives. That they will know right, from wrong. Truth from lies, and that we can instill in them the values that we hold.
OOOKAY… on a lighter note!
Yeah Me!
After the Show, Taylor and I went to Comp USA where I drilled the nice young computer savvy employee for 20 minutes (where I pretended to know what he was talking about) and carefully selected my "mothers day present"!
Taylor spent Hours upon Hours piecing together a computer for me last Christmas.. It was working out okay despite the lack of memory until it crashed a month and a half ago. I've had a few people asking for photo shoots and I've hesitated knowing that I wouldn’t be able to process them without a computer. I also decided that if I am going to get my photography side really going I've got to have something reliable, fast, and with the programs I need..
I wanted to get a laptop so that I wasn’t confined to one room while the kids were running around.. This way I can open it up wherever the kids may be, and get things done when its convenient. I'm feeling quite territorial about it too. I am trying to find a nice way to tell Taylor to keep his grubby hands off my shiny new EXPENSIVE piece of metal! I love him dearly, but the guy can't seem to touch anything without breaking it... its the disassembling OCD part of him.
Anyway, I'm really looking forward to playing with it! Wish me luck, and send me lots of computer friendly vibes.
rsonally I thinks she's already perfected at home) and finally we got to see what all the practice has been for.They put on the cutest performance of "caps for sale" a little singing and dancing number about Monkeys steeling the caps from peddlers. Ali was a peddler, and the very best of them of course! She was so incredibly fun to watch.
I was the epitome of proud momma sitting in the audience not taking my eyes off of her and beaming with pride at her every move. I had my camera all ready to take a million pictures, but of course the battery died after only 3 shots.. That camera sucks the life right out of batteries! Fortunately Taylor was in the back with the video camera. Oh did I happen to mention that Taylor and I made all the 'caps'? I volunteered to make them for the drama teacher, and forgot that I was working 12 hour shifts all weekend.....
My mom and Steph came, and the Ex and his parents were there, which makes any situation they share extremely uncomfortable. I'm glad for Ali’s sake that they are there for her, but as hard as I try, I just can't seem to not tremble in Ex's presence. I worry that at any moment he's going to go off on some irrational tirade. They sat on the other side of the auditorium, and because it was His night of the week Meg sat with them, and only ran across the room 3-4 times to give Mattie kisses.
After the Play, we went out to find Ali in the hallway. Steph had bought her flowers, which made her feel super special. (Yeah Steph)! It was really cute. She was so hyper jumping around and talking a mile a minute! I was so proud of her!
Anthony sat her down to film a quick little "interview" of her afterwards. She was so bubbly and cute about it. Ex came and stood with arms folded and toe tapping.. (Ex has a very large "I'm the ONLY Daddy" law.) So he wrapped it up. It still went relatively well between the two families. Ex Mother in law avoided me, which I have to admit was quite the relief. When Ali saw that we were all within close quarters together she got nervous and just started pointing at us all not quite sure what to do with herself. I felt bad that she was uncomfortable and thought I'd end it for her so I just smiled, kissed her, and told her how proud we were, then we excused ourselves and disappeared into the shadows.
Divorce..
I still feel whole-heartedly that I made the best decision for everyone when I left Ex, but I feel So much guilt over what those girls have to deal with for the rest of their lives. The stigma, the drama, the confusion… the loyalty… It’s so hard to watch and know that they have to struggle with those things. The only comfort I have is knowing that Taylor and I are providing them the healthy loving environment that they would not have if I had stayed. I pray everyday that we will have the stronger influence over them in their lives. That they will know right, from wrong. Truth from lies, and that we can instill in them the values that we hold.
OOOKAY… on a lighter note!
Yeah Me!
After the Show, Taylor and I went to Comp USA where I drilled the nice young computer savvy employee for 20 minutes (where I pretended to know what he was talking about) and carefully selected my "mothers day present"!
Taylor spent Hours upon Hours piecing together a computer for me last Christmas.. It was working out okay despite the lack of memory until it crashed a month and a half ago. I've had a few people asking for photo shoots and I've hesitated knowing that I wouldn’t be able to process them without a computer. I also decided that if I am going to get my photography side really going I've got to have something reliable, fast, and with the programs I need..
I wanted to get a laptop so that I wasn’t confined to one room while the kids were running around.. This way I can open it up wherever the kids may be, and get things done when its convenient. I'm feeling quite territorial about it too. I am trying to find a nice way to tell Taylor to keep his grubby hands off my shiny new EXPENSIVE piece of metal! I love him dearly, but the guy can't seem to touch anything without breaking it... its the disassembling OCD part of him.
Anyway, I'm really looking forward to playing with it! Wish me luck, and send me lots of computer friendly vibes.
1 comment:
Yea Ali! She's so smart, creative and I've always felt she could be the next big movie star! Congratulations Alex! Post some pictures when you can.
Jess, you and Anthony are great parents and Ali and Meg are so fortunate to have you both as parents. You both provide a stable, loving home. I know Ali and Meg will grow up with the values and ethics that you and Anthony have instilled in them.
Happy Mother's Day!
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