Not needed, but needing more.

I may not be a food source any more, but I'm still the Mama.

My Baby decided to ween himself two days ago. Its been a hard break for me. I thought that I would be the one weening him. He's just over a year, and That is longer than I nursed either of the girls. I didn't mind. It was that one thing I could do for him that no one else could. I know he's the last baby I will have, and I haven't wanted to give that bonding up. Is it funny that I miss it? It breaks my heart a little that he won't come to me and want to nurse every time he's hungry hurt or tired. He still needs me right? I don't want my kids to grow up so fast. It hurts a little more than I thought it would.

I did have a few things to distract me from my sadness though.

Megan came down to drop something important off.......Angie had to make an emergency trip to Salt lake for her pet turtle who was ill. And Lucky me, They stayed to play!.

we had 9 kids running around this house for over 5 hours! I LOVED it! We took the opportunity to take some more pictures of the littles. (because come on, whats a trip to Jessica's house without a little photo shoot?), and While conference was on in the background we made cookies and watched them disappear into the Little hands that reached over the counter.

I LOVE having Friends over. I love filling my house with people I love. I thrive on positive, uplifting, Non Judgemental, Unconditional friendships. (by the way.. I missed ya Ang,Mich,Emmee,and Oly Wish you guys could have come over too) I'm so lucky to have such great friends.