Sunday, April 29, 2007

He loves me like a love song

All my life I wanted to be the object of affection that sappy songwriters wrote about. I would listen to the radio dreaming about my future husband and how much he would love and adore me. He would need me, he would want me, he would write lyrics like the ones I heard, and they would be about me.
As I got older, I had boyfriends, some serious, some not so serious. I was married. We married for the wrong reasons. I thought that I had loved him. I hoped that we had done the right thing. But then a song would play on the radio and I knew. I knew he didn’t love me like that. And as much as I hate to admit it, I didn’t love him like that either. I tried. I wanted to, really I did.


I had decided that a love like that didn’t exist. My marriage was intense. It was all of that good, bad, worse.. We finally ended our marriage December 2002. I had no intentions of trying to find “love” again. I was going to raise my two daughters, and try to live my life happier and healthier than I had in 4 years. That was my plan........ until HE came along. He started working in the same department the exact month my divorce was final. April 2003. I remember him coming in for his interview and thinking how young and innocent he looked. A few months later he was stopping at my desk making small talk. Pretty soon he was sitting down often for long chats about everything from kids to religion. He pursued me I ignored it. Our first actual outing together was supposed to be a group hike with a bunch of co-workers. When no-one else showed up he and I went as planned and their it began. That was June.
What attracted me to him the most was his abiding faith, and generous heart. It didn’t take long after that. We were married January 5th 2004.

He loves me. He loves me like a love song. When I hear something on the radio I feel it deep in my soul. I know that he feels that way about me. And I feel the same way about him.
If only he could sing…

3 comments:

Sharmyn said...

What beautiful thoughts! It's so fun to spend time with you-albeit virtually!

Megan @ Megity's Handmade said...

Awwwwww......so sweet. I love it! Oh, I gave Sharmyn your blogity address. Now your family!

Michele said...

I found your blog via flickr. I have to say within seconds of looking at your pictures and reading your words I KNEW you were Mormon. I was surprised that you didnt' put that in your bio.

I'm not Mormon and my fiance left the church (had his name removed from the books) but his children 18.5 girl & boy 20 are still active. The girl went and got married in April to some boy (loser, punk) who is Mormon his whole family is too. I couldn't get over how they encouraged her to get married so young even when we told the Bishop how much we were againt it. We felt because we're not church members that our oponions didn't matter much, only those of her active (horrible) mother. Also they live Utah we're in California--that was another factor against us.
So my question to you is this...do you feel that the church pushes kids to get married way before they even know what marriage is about? Do you think that if you wouldn't have been a member of the church you wouldn't have gotten married so young the first time?